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| Pic of graffiti taken in Montreal |
What a
crazy day at work.
Over the last few weeks, I have felt like I’m a hamster going round and round on a wheel trying to get everything completed by ‘D-Day’, October 24th, the day of my operation...but not quite succeeding. As I finish one thing, two new tasks are added to the “to do” list.
I think most women have a tendency to carry the world on their shoulders…we run the household, juggle many projects at the same time, raise our kids, take care of our parents. Most of us have the “superwomen” syndrome. I think I would fall within this category!
I often feel that everyone’s happiness depends on me and that I can only be happy if everyone around me is happy. That seems like an overwhelming responsibility for just one person, I have to admit.
How often have I heard my husband say...relax!! But I can't relax, I have too many things to do! Even sleeping seems like a waste of time.
But what if this one time, I thought of only me! What an idea! What if in fact, everyone’s happiness depends on my happiness and my well-being.
I think it’s time to acknowledge that I am not a super women and that I might have to put a few projects on hold…just for a while. So the cleaning might not be done as it should, my family may have to eat take out and my co-workers may have to continue the work without me for a few weeks.
I’ve been more stressed about everything I will not get done than about my operation.
I know I have a whole support system around me (family and friends)…people more than willing to help if I need it. I think that’s the problem, needing help sometimes feels like admitting defeat. When I think about it…I would never think someone is weak because they need help.
So it’s time that I let things go. I will enjoy the few days I have left before "D-Day".
I know that better days are ahead. It may not be freedom 55 yet, but it will be freedom nonetheless.
So for the next 3 days, I’m putting a “do not disturb sign” up and will go and enjoy family time at the cottage. It may rain cats and dogs but I will not care.
Have a nice weekend everyone....I am relaxing :)
Over the last few weeks, I have felt like I’m a hamster going round and round on a wheel trying to get everything completed by ‘D-Day’, October 24th, the day of my operation...but not quite succeeding. As I finish one thing, two new tasks are added to the “to do” list.
I think most women have a tendency to carry the world on their shoulders…we run the household, juggle many projects at the same time, raise our kids, take care of our parents. Most of us have the “superwomen” syndrome. I think I would fall within this category!
I often feel that everyone’s happiness depends on me and that I can only be happy if everyone around me is happy. That seems like an overwhelming responsibility for just one person, I have to admit.
How often have I heard my husband say...relax!! But I can't relax, I have too many things to do! Even sleeping seems like a waste of time.
But what if this one time, I thought of only me! What an idea! What if in fact, everyone’s happiness depends on my happiness and my well-being.
I think it’s time to acknowledge that I am not a super women and that I might have to put a few projects on hold…just for a while. So the cleaning might not be done as it should, my family may have to eat take out and my co-workers may have to continue the work without me for a few weeks.
I’ve been more stressed about everything I will not get done than about my operation.
I know I have a whole support system around me (family and friends)…people more than willing to help if I need it. I think that’s the problem, needing help sometimes feels like admitting defeat. When I think about it…I would never think someone is weak because they need help.
So it’s time that I let things go. I will enjoy the few days I have left before "D-Day".
I know that better days are ahead. It may not be freedom 55 yet, but it will be freedom nonetheless.
So for the next 3 days, I’m putting a “do not disturb sign” up and will go and enjoy family time at the cottage. It may rain cats and dogs but I will not care.
Have a nice weekend everyone....I am relaxing :)
Love the look and feel of your blog Lise. Congtrats!
ReplyDeleteEnjoy my friend....god only knows you need it. You'll see, after the operation, there will be one less stress in your life :)
ReplyDeleteYou are so great at this Lise! I will definitely read your blog everyday and share it with family and friends! I definitely have the superwoman syndrome (my sister tells me all the time). And your post made me realize that I need to think of "me" and if I do so, the others will be happy in return because I'll be happy! (not that I'm not happy now), I just want to avoid getting to that point of no return! Thanks Lise... :)
ReplyDeleteYes!.. Take charge.. enjoy the flowers.. and the world beyond this "super maman-woman" syndrome!!! I live by enjoy every moment that life gives.. and always take time to smell the flowers maybe its the artist in me that does that... happy I learned that at a young age. Doubt that I will ever regret it.. The rest around me will figure its way out.. and people see how it refelcts on my day to day life.. and work (stay at home mom - photographer) ... see Lise, you already influenced Jacynthe!! HA! good job!.. xoxo.. i support you 100%.. Be you! fallow your Dreams..
ReplyDeleteOh mom, I'm so proud of you. This is a beautiful idea (thank you Suzanne). And your way with words is inspiring!! I'm happy you're writing. :) J't'admire maman. *hugs*
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